Nevermore?

Nevermore (adverb. Poetic/Literary) - At no future time; never again.

I hate being me.

Some things that I want to - need to - say, but just can't, and it's bothering me, bothering me.

It's always the "not now, not today." then the "whoops, moment's gone."

Damn it.

Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'